Sunday, June 22, 2008

quitting the band

arrogance and rudeness consume my soon-to-be-ex-band members.
they're all very bad musicians
they don't understand how to play with other people.
i've been playing music for too long to not notice that.

they think that they are soooo good.
i say nay nay

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

so peter, you've become a pirate

You can tell him that I'm waiting
You can tell him that I'm not coming home
It's been a couple weeks debating
And I'm still not sure if she really knows
Fight off your urges to tell her how you feel
It can only cause you problems tonight
Hold tight till you leave, then decide
Whether the timing was wrong, or was it right?

Cause I know I would, regret if I ever left
Take a look just a little closer
Because she's the one that makes it feel like home
And I see now, but I can't fight
Wait here just a little longer
Hold on tight you about to lose her
These feelings that I have inside for her

Call me a friend when you're in dire need of
Falling cause I'm always there to help you up
Call me when you have a place to run away from
Call me cause I..

Cause I know I would, regret if I ever left
Take a look just a little closer
Because she's the one that makes it feel like home
And I see now, but I can't fight
Wait here just a little longer
Hold on tight you about to lose her
These feelings that I have inside for her

Give me a chance to prove that I
Could be your one, your inspiration.
Cause I swear, I won't, mess it all up give me a try
I know that I have my own flaws
But they just build my motivation
So take me, right now, before I start to change my mind

Cause I know I would, regret if I ever left
Take a look just a little closer
Because she's the one that makes it feel like home
And I see now, but I can't fight
Wait here just a little longer
Hold on tight you about to lose her
These feelings that I have inside for her

lately

i don't seem to update this very often.


it seemed that for a while, i was mad, but i've gotten over it.
God, Nicolle and Katie Beth helped me out like crazy

I DANCED!!!! i haven't actually danced in so long it's crazy.
This guy, James taught me a very simple swing dance, and that's about all i did all night.

every time i see Katie Beth, i seem to fall harder and harder. She's developed this habit that i absolutely love, she kisses my neck. It's just so...i can't think of a word...

God, i want to thank you for all the friends you've given me. I especially want to thank you for Katie. She's everything I've ever wanted in a friend r companion. She's smart, funny, beautiful,, she's not afraid to be herself, man, that is the most attractive thing about her, she doesn't act like she has to be different around me.
I love it

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

just because

just because
you were raised a certain way

just because
you think you're so good

just because
you apologize, it doesn't make it right

you're not perfect
you never will be

just because
you say that you care

just because
you're self righteous

just because
you want me out

i try to be
what you tell me to be


but
i just
can't

just because
all of my past

just because
you can't grow up

just because
i'm not you

no title

i'm closed,
i wish i was open
that's what i want
more than anything right now.

i'm so shy,
so insecure.
you know i'm not
the type if guy
who lets you know
exactly what i'm thinking.

but you're helping me out
and i'm happy about that

it's been a while

i haven't posted in a while, I've been meaning to, but I've just needed some time to think about what all to write about.
first of all, to all these little girls who "love" me, you know who you are, please leave me alone, I'm not interested, and even if i was, i would not tell you, please leave me alone, pretend I'm begging you, please stop.
second, I'm sick and tired of getting treated like a bad dog. the people i live with consistently treat me like I'm always doing something wrong, I've done nothing wrong, nothing, I'm sorry i can't be all self-righteous and perfect like you guys, i just can't.
third-a lot lately, I've found myself too shy to say much of anything to Katie, i want to get over that so bad, I wan to to be open with her, but it's not easy....