dear katie

Katie,
I’m sitting here in ECO (Extended classroom opportunity). As usual I’ve been thinking a lot about you. I was staring into space earlier today and my friend, Edwina, she interrupted me. “Ryan, what’s on your mind?” Well, I had a difficult time answering. So, I wrestled with my mind and came up with the same answer I always do “it’s Complicated…” Now, mind you, these are people who have known me since my freshman year, and know me quite well. So, they thought I was sad about something. It took a few minutes to convince them of the truth, that I am PERFECTLY HAPPY.
So, in trying to explain to the enigma that is our “relationship” many people put in their opinions from “you gotta hit that” to marriage to monogamy. So, needles to say, it was an interesting (for lack of a better word) lunch today.
But I got to thinking, what we are doing, in our relationship is awesome. I very well can’t describe it, but I love it.
You were talking the other night about wanting to marry a man that you could help grow, that could help you grow. What was said afterwards made me happy like only you can. We both agreed that we wish that that man could be me. I know this sounds crazy, but the idea of you as a wife is just phenomenal
Katie Beth Sanders, out of any girl I have ever known, I adore you with a passion that exceeds how I feel about any other human being short of my mother. I wish I could say this in person, but yeah.